Wednesday, December 14, 2011

I Am Uncertain

First off, yes, that's from an Operation Ivy song and you're welcome to listen while you read.


OK, so if you didn't know, I'm headed to grad school in a couple weeks.  I am not feeling as enthusiastic as I think I should about this. Maybe it's the fact that I've had that nightmare where you failed or forgot a class and didn't actually get a diploma, within the last year, despite the fact that I graduated 7 years ago.  Or the fact that I'm already having nightmares that I'm totally failing in grad school.


But mostly it's the fact that it's going to cost me a lot of money and time and I'm not sure it will be worth it.  I feel like a hypocrite, because I've advised so many other people that 'more school is not the answer'.  I read an interesting post the other day which really got me thinking about this again.  The author is arguing against "free" college, which is a little different, and I don't agree with everything she says. Not having been herself, she seems to have a pretty strong anti-college bias (which she acknowledges), but in particular "The pro-college people are such babies that they can't figure out how to read a book without it being spoonfed to them on a schedule and being explicitly told which parts of the text were the important bits" seems a little strong to me.


Still, I feel like I'm taking the easy way out. If you can't find a job, you can always go back to school, right?  I don't like feeling like a part of the problem (which I think we have) of too many overeducated people not working. On the other hand, I'm not getting job's I'm applying for - they must be going to people with Master's Degrees! If you can`t beat 'em, join 'em, right?